I KNOW I’M THE ONLY ONE FOR YOU

I know you think this is not true

I’LL BE YOUR HONEY, IF YOU’LL BE SWEET

Waking up on the ground next to a woman praying in the third terminal of the Dallas airport waiting for my flight to New York and in that moment maybe I was praying too — not to God but to you.

EVERYWHERE YOU GO I WILL FOLLOW

I’m in New York and I’ve stayed out drinking until 4am every night and that was Saturday night and it was very cold and on Sunday I went to Washington Square Park to read and I couldn’t imagine anything better and Sunday night I did drugs in the bathroom of the Roxy Hotel off a silver tray I stole from a different bathroom of a restaurant called Casino that’s right next to Dimes Square where I had two Manhattans at Clandestino and on Monday morning I had my first New York bagel and went to the MoMA where i saw art that I’ve only ever daydreamt of seeing and I had my first New York hotdog and my first slice of New York pizza and now it’s Tuesday and I had my first bacon, egg and cheese and I leave tomorrow and I’m imagining doing this every other weekend — it could be sweet.

I’M GULITY OF FEAR

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